I'VE ALWAYS LOVED YOU

Since I was juvenile
I've always mitigated my thoughts
Controlled almost every time my feelings
Hush,,
I'm sorry I didn't get the last thing you said,
I was careful enough to avoid love
Observing carefully how I walked on the golden turf
Little did I know,, I've being in love
How could I stop the flow when your all I want.
How could I interdict the urge when your my thoughts
Could I eschew you,, when your now in me?
I try so hard to fight it off,, I failed
Did all I could to neglect it,, it failed
Explored the possibility of making you insignificant,, instead I loved you the more
I don't know how to say this,, Though I'm scared about the emotional adventure,, I love you and I love you very much
It may sound normal but to me,, it ain't
I care enough to get a response from you.. But I care more about a love from you,,
Be meticulous enough not to break my heart,,
Encompass your self with my thoughts
Bludgeon yourself with thoughts about me
And feel with empathy,, the love i have found towards you,
Though,, I have fought with it a thousand times,,it appears I could do more by loving you than beating myself,, I love you,,