There was quite a lot of arguments towards what the caption of this image might be.
These are the two which I mostly Agreed to :
"Whoever walked away, will try to contact you"
"Your heart and your mind will never want the same"
Some will have a different opinion to what this image means, probably depending on the experiences we've had which can accurately reflect to this image.
My experience:
About 6 months ago people would tell me that eventually I would move on and forget about him, I hated to hear that nonsense because to me that was impossible, It was like going against my dreams, my passion and my future.. Atleast thats what I felt like, It's what my heart made me feel.
People who mentioned "healing" to me would immedietly go to my 'hate list' and I would shut them down and go into depression mode..
I thought to myself, How can I forget the unforgettable? .. the time I spent around this person was making me feel like Acceptance, safe, and at home.
I had never experienced such Love this person gave to me, so when he showed me what Love really was, it fell into an addiction; for the little details he did, had carved through my Skull and into my brain.
I was 15 when I met him and I remembered that to me 'Love' was a joke because no one that I knew took it seriously.
What Im trying to get off my chest is that I spoiled this relationship from the beginning, I told him I wasn't ready for a relationship and that I hated Love.. I would tell him that I was cheating on him or that I had numerous guys at my feet, but In reality I hated commitment and I hated the fact that I couldnt flirt with other guys anymore. I loved attention and I liked him but at the same time I was not ready to be in Love.
we were together for 4 years but in the first 2 years I wasn't sure about Love until the reality of 'who was there for me?' hit me.
When I fell deeply in love with him, he started to fall out of it.. and I deserved it.
He would leave, then come back, apologize and have fun then leave again.
I deserved it because I wasn't fair on him and I changed him, I made him hate me and I made him hate Love.
I could tell he was hurt because when we argued he spoke about the past and I couldn't argue but apologize and tell him how much I love him.
Slowly everything got out of hand, we would argue in public while I would cry my eyes out for him not to leave me, he would try to push me away by laughing.
I was too late to win him back, and when I did accept the fact he was gone, he would come back.
I am now 19 and I still find it hard to forget him, He always reached out to me then blocked me the next day.
The last time he reached out was 4 months ago and I was so happy however He only came back to tell me about his achievements as always, I anyways knew he wouldn't reach out to say he Loved me, because he doesn't.
I still feel deeply In love with him, and I know nothing can happen because he deserves better and I made his first impression of Love, horrible.
I constantly argue with my heart because I'm so close to emailing him and then I think "Do I really need to hurt again?" and sometimes I feel like getting hurt is worth it because In the beginning he showed me, I was worth it.
Ever since the break up he pursued his love for philosophy and is now against the whole love and marriage thing.. Yep, that might have been my fault.
He was always so determined and hard working, so I wish him the best and now I avoid intervening with his Life.
Sometimes it's best to grab your feelings and walk away.. just throw them off a cliff.
~ It will get easier. ~