"Don’t tell me the moon is shining; show me the glint of light on broken glass.”
I was always onto the thoughts about writing, the foolish thoughts like-which pen I should use or is that better to type or write by hand. A lot of these unimportant things came into my mind.
Like anyone else I also wanted my work to be something great, I always wanted to put my work in front of people and get appreciated. More than writing I was into the rewards I get after writing it. Sometime's it is one's opinions about it.
So I wrote a few articles in between the last two years. Some of my friends read it and praised me. There were moments they don't even say a word. My inspiration was always the verdict they give to my article.
That was the biggest problem too, I was more into the rewards than the process. That is also in the case of the jobs most people take.
They don't love their job they, only love monthly income and benefits and positions they will be reaching throughout the journey.
It's this quarantine that changed lots of my wrong theories on life. To start a new venture I needed a real-time in solitude doing nothing. When we become completely empty, we should start thinking again more effectively and start doing something new.
This time when I started writing on this quarantine it was the process that I loved. The moment when I finish it I was moving on to the next. I don't need an inspiration from outiside now.
When I usually start writing a story I don't even know where this is going to end. I may just have the idea of incidents that gonna happen. I was thrilled about finding the end.
After writing a few lines, there will be a flow. I was travelling with a pen to find out what's gonna happen in the end. Ther was moments I was even stunned by the end.
There were also stories I completely pushed myself very hard to fabricate it. In the end, I've normally moved it to the trash. There was no real feeling for these stories.
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So whenever I take a pen I don't look back or think about the end, just will be trying to keep up with the flow. Now I know the power of being alone and creating something.
"if it doesn't come bursting out of you
in spite of everything,
don't do it.
unless it comes unasked out of your
heart and your mind and your mouth
and your gut,
don't do it."
These lines were the ones that made a lot of impression on me about writing. After reading these lines, I've stopped myself most of the times from pushing myself to write. The only thing I tried was keeping a good mindset and become open for any thought come.
I waited for it. Sometimes it took days when it comes everything was easy. The only thing I have to do was just keep up with the flow of thoughts.
