Life is not a game. Life is to be enjoyed. Everyone's path in life is not straight but crooked. If you finish life before you enjoy it, how will you understand the taste of life .....
If you kill yourself without fighting the other side on the battlefield, then you are not a soldier, you are a foolish man. If you don't want to survive when someone leaves, then hide yourself in the crowd of ordinary people. Spending some time with them will also show how difficult their life is. How Dumutho is fighting for rice. Then when you hear about their suffering, your suffering will feel weak .......
If you give your life for someone else and the parents who kept you unattended for 25/26 years, what would you pay them if they cried all their lives? If there is no one, you will not be able to give him back even if he wants to. Even if you die, it won't matter to him. He will marry someone else. Then what is the use of you dying? It is foolish to give your life for him if he has no feelings for you. Learn to live for yourself. Suicide can never be a solution. All problems have a solution. Find a solution.
Pray five times and you will see that the bad thoughts will go away from your mind .... When you fall into any danger, pray in the prayers and cry to the Creator, your mind will be better ....
Don't hurt the old parents by committing suicide, they may live but they will die from the living, at least for them, learn to live.