Between the Real World and the Dream World

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A quiet and silent night. Lying in bed. "Bored". I said. (Staring at my phone). I took my phone and played a song. "Galau". I said to myself. "What is this? Uneasy feeling". I thought. I was restless, it felt different from usual. Time passed. The clock hands were pointing to 9 pm. This was my time to sleep. My eyes began to close.
"Where am I?". I was carried away in a dream world. I didn't expect and what would happen. I knew before that I had a past. No one knows my past. It hurts. Maybe only God, me, and him know.

"HIM". He is my boyfriend. I love him, I understand and know him.
"Maybe". Maybe he is my best boyfriend. But I don't understand what God means. Why did I meet him but then have to be separated. Why do we never get along and always fight? I want only him on my mind, only him, but never mind.

Someone once said to me. " Don't think about the past that will never happen again, but think about planning for the future and see what is happening now, not the past." Those words made me strong and confident.

In the real story I don't understand my storyline. Oh my Princess where are you? Where have you been all this time?. I'm waiting for you here. In the real story our relationship is broken. You hate me and I have to hate you and we walk apart. This is why I choose in a dream.

"MAYBE". Yes, Maybe !!. Allah has another way. It's time for me to forget you. I deleted your cellphone number and removed your Facebook then I blocked your Facebook. There is only 1 memory that I hold, which is your story.

When I started to forget him, he came again but in the dream world. "Yes, this is a dream". I thought. Even though it was a dream, it felt real. What is this sign?

My story in this dream begins at night. I was lost in the middle of a pitch-black night without light. There was no view and it was like being in a grave. I ran and kept running until I finally found a door. I don't understand why there was only one door and no windows or other building frames.

I approached the door. I opened it slowly. And……………
(Surprised then calmed down). It turned out that I found a room and in the room were my classmates. Not a school but a LES place. I took out my accounting book, but it turned out that the lesson was English. I just followed along.

While I was talking to my classmates, suddenly two guys came from in front of the door to the chair I was sitting on. But at that time I was sitting on my classmate's chair. I was surprised that one of the guys was my ex-boyfriend. I didn't expect him to be in the same tutoring place as me and the chair I was using to study was the chair where he studied. The lesson started again. "Crazy". This time the tutor was a killer, ranting at length.

Teet…., Teet……….., Teet……,”. The bell signaling the end of the lesson rang. The students went out. He approached me. I didn’t understand why in the dream world he was so caring and kind to me. He pulled my hand tightly and we went out of the lesson to the front gate together. “Your hands are so cold? Are you sick?” I asked him who looked pale. “Yes, I’m sick”. He answered. Then he released my hand from his grip. He left while saying “Hey, you come with me later”. I didn’t understand, then he crossed the street. I waited for him until he came back. It was raining. I immediately looked for a place to take shelter. Across the street there was an internet cafe and I saw a girl there. Yes, that girl was one of my close friends. I immediately crossed the street to look for my ex and asked my close friend’s girl to accompany me.

When I arrived on the other side my close friend was no longer there!
My fate was sad T_T …
I tried to look for them both until finally my clothes were soaked. I gave up. "Ex-liar, hypocrite and traitor". In my heart.
"If the past is still the past, I'm just the stupid one". I said to myself again. In my annoyance and disappointment and with high emotions I suddenly jolted. I woke up.
"Turns out it's just a dream world". I said to myself.

"The end"