As most people can guess, I did not end up leaving that night. My Fiance rushed out to the car crying and banging on the doors and windows. Eventually I let her in and drove away. All the way home she begged and pleaded for my forgiveness. As stupid as I was, I did exactly that. We spent some time talking and I ended up forgiving her. I know, I know, if only I could turn back time, I would have walked away the night I laid my eyes on her.
So the wedding day came. Here also there are many details I will not mention right now, as they are meant for a book I am writing. Plus this would end up being a fifteen part story. I wanted to drive away from the venue and was on my way to do so, but then I saw them drive in. I couldn't get it over my her to leave her at the alter. Besides, I made her a promise to love her and work through things, so I turned around and went back. Things went very well throughout the ceremony and most of the after party. About 2 hours into our celebration, my now wife started hanging around the singer most of the time. We were now married and she still continued with her things. I had to spend my wedding party with my mother in law and her friends. The night turned out with my wife not even spending it with me but slept somewhere else, which she said was at her mom's. Today I know different.
The first two months of my marriage things only escalated. During this time my wife snuck off with another guy and lived with him. She lied to me by saying that he offered he work and she has an apartment of her own close to work. She would go home every weekend so we could be together, but it never happened. During this time I was trying to build my business. Things were going very well at first, and I was bringing in clients one after the other. My wife kept asking me for money during the month, and being the husband I strived to be, I would without question transfer funds for her. The guy she was staying with called me one night, and told me while he was drunk, that I should divorce my wife, and she is not worth it. It was then that I found out they had a relationship, and she was also now cheating on him with someone else.
For a while after this, my marriage and life went very dark, and I landed in depression. I tried to take my own life. I woke up in hospital two days later. I had not received a message or call from my wife at all. She clearly didn't care, but I was adamant to fight. If my marriage was going to work and succeed, I would have to fight for it, so that is what I did. Some time later it really seemed as if things we heading in the right direction. My wife and her boyfriend broke up, and she came back to me. Her promises once again was short lived. For about ten days things were amazing, but then she started going out again, with people whom she called friends. I was still suffering from depression and had my trust issues, but I kept it inside and did not want to show here any weakness. She saw right through me though, and used it to her advantage. In the following two months she built about four more relationships with other men and slept with abut another ten to fifteen men, from information I received. on two occasions, I caught her kissing different men through their open car windows, slept with a guy to make her one ex boyfriend jealous, and received proof of her infidelity with a guy who became a friend of mine. He provided me with all the proof on his phone.
I tried everything to open my wife's eyes and see that I was fighting for her. When business went quiet, I told her I could not give her money, as I have work related responsibilities. Here response was merely that I am a useless husband that refuses to take care of my wife. I even went as far as getting a new house I couldn't actually afford and purchased a car I couldn't actually afford. This I did hoping she would see I am trying to work to provide her with the best life possible. This pushed me even deeper into depression. I attempted taking my life for a second time with highly prescription sleeping medication. This attempt also failed. I bought some of the strongest prescription medication on the market, but I was still alive. Then my business, started going under. I started drowning myself in alcohol and drugs. I wanted to overdose. I had clients pay me for work, and I couldn't do it anymore because I did not have the money. My desperation to try save my marriage and make it work, and my actions because of my depression resulted in the failure of my bad business decisions,and me ending up living on the streets. I became someone I did not recognise. I worked so hard trying to make the impossible work. I had been through being used, abused mentally, emotionally and physically. and during all this time I slapped my wife only once. That is when I understood why people were warning and telling me that I should walk away and not look back. I then understood why people said she would destroy my life.
I looked past all the infidelity. I looked past finding a pentagram under our bed and a filthy hose that wasn't cleaned in two weeks. Past the fact that my wife tried to orchestrate a plan against me buy falsely accusing me of things, just so she will be free to have her relationship. This was information I was given buy the person she tried to orchestrate the plan with. My life was finally ruined. I was alone with noone to speak to and ask for advice. That is when I decided to walk away. I returned back home, started working on myself and rebuilding my life. Today I still feel the suffering deep inside me, but I survived and healed from depression. I am free of all addictions of alcohol and drugs, and I am in a great place. I have a great job and work as a hotel F&B manager. I bought a vehicle which I owe no money on and my life is still on the rise.
I am a true survivor of mental health, abuse and the evils of toxic women. There are many details about my story which were just too many to add, but now I want men to learn from my mistakes. I know how weak and desperate I was, and I dont want any man to travel down the same path.
The moral of the story: When a woman, shows a red flag, get out and don't look back. A second chance is enough for her to lose respect for you, and then it all goes downhill from there. Take more time and really get to know the person you are with. If a woman knows how much you love her and care, she has the power. Don't just believe whatever she says, women have the ability to hide her true thoughts and feelings for as long as she sees necessary. Make yourself and your goals your priority, and put them on the bottom of your list. She is able, can and will drop you at the drop of a hat without ever flinching or the slightest care. A man must enter a relationship with that thought in his mind. Not preparing yourself for the worst, gives her the power over your life, freedom and will. In the end, you will lose and will need to rebuild from scratch with a war you will need to fight within yourself. Remember to respect yourself first, because you worked for it. She still needs to work to deserve Don't get me wrong, I don't hate women, and perhaps might get married again one day, only this time I will make my decision to what her moral values are. I know what I can offer a woman, but what can she truly offer you. It doesn's matter how attractive a woman is, or how great her personality is, I have had them all, and received the same pain from different kinds of women. Search their true moral values before attemting any connection.
I AM OPTIMUS PRIME, AND SUFFERED THE WORST TO BRING THE MAN DEEP INSIDE YOU TO THE SURFACE HAHAHA
Just a joke.
To all men, be strong and become the ALPHA once more.