I took a medium to express my thoughts ...

We make plans for life, fix our goals, and make a planner for everyday life. Why we do that? So that we can lead a maintained proper life, because we all know without aim/ goal, life is meaningless. Everybody has some targets, goals to fulfill, for example, some of us planned for the whole year 2020, made resolutions and rearranged and scheduled to fulfill some aims and then what happened? Either all planned ruined, canceled, or postponed for a certain time. But are we became hopeless, are we stopped making plans? Still, we are hopeful because 2020 still haven't over yet. We are still hoping that maybe something good will happen soon, we are still thinking that these are just bad days, soon there will be sunshine.

From yesterday, my days are worst, why? I have got some bad news from family and friends. One of my friend's father is dealing with cancer. Because of the corona situation, he is not getting his treatment properly in fact because of safety, his family members can't stay around for him. He is in critical condition and his body is not ready for chemo so there is a chance of 50-50 survival. After hearing the entire situation, my heart just broke...

I don't feel comfortable talking about alive or dead, I just don't feel good. Death is something that is intense and nobody can't avoid this topic. We know that one day we have to leave this world but we just don't want to recall the term of death. I saw my mom's death, a body without a soul... Her eyes were closed, pale, cold skin, and a shrinking body. Trust me I still can't forget that moment when I touched her skin, it was cold, her skin was so pale that her veins were visible...

I feel bad whenever I visualize that moment, an unforgettable moment, it was sudden and it took me a long time to recover and accept she is no more. But when my mother left, I saw another life, I wish I had enough words to explain but I can't. It was the worst time of my life and I thought that was the end of my journey. I thought my life finished and I won't be able to recover.

One thing I have learned from her leave, there is nothing that can stop people from leaving but their words, inspiration always stays with us. People come into this world for a purpose and to serve and when their purpose of life is over, they leave.

I never thought about the changes in life in fact before that incident, I never understood life. Perhaps I never thought that my mother would have left me, perhaps my way of seeing life was different, who knows. It's been 10 years almost and I have changed myself a lot. The person you know as a "Priyan", she was different, not like this before. I was introvert always but not like this before. I had so many friends, family members, cousins but later everybody left except few. True people never leave anyone alone when somebody needs them... I believe that...

Anyway, I don't want to make anyone sad or anything like that, I believe everyone has a way of expressing themselves, some express openly and some takes a pen and paper to express their mind words. That's all...

I just shared mine...

Nothing personal...

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