NOT ALONE, YET ALONE

What is it that I want right now. Truth is I honestly do not know what I really want. I have great need for so many things, yet I can't say what is it I want. I don't really know what's wrong with me, a happy kid with a sad heart. Sometimes I wonder, is this what nature really wants for me, is this what my parents really wants for me and finally is this what the Supreme Being actually want for me. I don't know where I did it wrong or if I offended anyone before but everything happening right now, I don't deserve it. If only I can cry my way out, I'd done since. I'm not lonely yet I'm alone. How long will this continue; maybe forever. Is there someone around who's feeling same way like I do, please reach out because I'm tired already. I try to make everyone smile and happy but I can't make myself happy, try to please everyone yet I please no one. This is definitely not what I want for myself. If it was in my power, I'll choose another option. Be at least like other kids, have a proper family. I'm tired of standing alone, trying to gather everyone but yet loosing everyone. Will this sorrow ever end?😢