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I hope everyone is fine, I am also fine Alhamdulillah, we humans have many feelings and emotions: love, pride, anger, stubbornness, wants, and many emotions working in us. Many people can express themselves, while others are unable to. I am a Bengali girl, and our forefathers and grandmothers have some customs and rules that my family still follows a lot, although in today's era no one observes so many traditions, but there are some families who observe these things.
After my marriage, the family of my father-in-law's house is also somewhat like this: I got married in a very big family, there are many relatives here, and everyone lives very close. I can't do anything here. I couldn't finish my studies; my wife doesn't need to study more; but all my sisters have graduated; only I am an undergraduate. After coming to my father-in-law's house, I tried to do everything according to their wishes, trying to make them happy, my own happiness, and self-respect. I left everything and only thought about them, and my husband never supported or encouraged me in any matter; he always wanted me to keep his parents happy without taking on all the responsibilities of his family. But in the midst of all this, I have lost my sense of self. No one ever asked for my wishes, hopes, aspirations, or happiness, and I could never say them openly. I always tried to find the reason for my happiness in their happiness.
I was also married at a very young age, so I didn't understand many things. I always tried to make myself like them. My silence, my passion, and my sacrifice were never visible to them. Seeing that I didn't say anything, they thought that I didn't feel anything, I didn't suffer, and I didn't have likes or dislikes, but no one could understand the many things that were hidden in my silence. I started to give more priority to my liking. Being good, I could not finish my studies, so I started to build myself differently.
As much as I have spent time in my life, I realized that in this life no one does anything from the heart to make someone happy, so we have to take out our own happiness and keep ourselves good.
All people offer prayers for me. I appreciate you taking the time to carefully read my post.
Best Regards
