How many of us can say we did a good job and gave our children 100% attention 24/7?
It wasn't me I can tell you that. I did my best, like to think I did but many times I did not. Not because I didn't feel it or didn't want to but because I was tired, exhausted, and fighting to stay alive. If you like feel free to say these are all excuses and I could have done a better job.
I don't like to think back to my childhood, I tried to ignore how it influenced me and made the best out of it. I wanted a safe place, to build a home, honesty, and trust. Not for me only but for my children as well.
It doesn't always work out the way we, parents hope for. It's not that I had or have great dreams for my children all I want for them is to be satisfied with their lives, and able to do what they like. There's no need to have a career since careers will end and once you are a winner it will be hard to stay at the top.
We talk a lot, daily and no topic is forbidden. No, we do not always share the same opinion and there's no need if there's respect. We are close but I felt shocked about how one of my children responded after certain news. It felt as if I heard MSN recite Reuters and it made me think.
This child of mine has been more raised by teachers (the government) and the internet than any of my other children. It's part of a generation having nothing in common with me, the eldest or the youngest two. Different educated, different times and it starts to show. I keep my fingers crossed it won't escalate and in the end, the way I raised this child will pay off.
I know times changed, and I understand each generation differs from the one before and the next but it's also a fact that history repeats itself even if it's dressed in a present suit. So I keep my fingers crossed and I hope this child will wake up even if it's scary.
At this very moment, so much of what has been taught turns out to be untrue. It does not matter if it is about our food, health, the history of the country we live in, foreigners, or terrorist attacks. The truth about the royal families, the vaccinations, and our schooling is hidden behind a wall of lies for so long that the minority believes the truth is a lie.
It's getting more and more clear (evidence shows it) our history is made up. There's so much hate spread that it makes me wonder how people can still like, respect, and trust each other today and in the future.
I did my best even if my best is not half as good as someone else's.
She wasn't a winner is what people could say about me. Not being a winner doesn't mean I'm a loser though. I do not easily give up and fight against injustice no matter if it's for or because of a child or... someone else. One day they will remember my words.
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