Tell your story#24; He broke my heart.

Greetings beautiful ladies. Longest time. Anyways am glad to be here and I have gist for us.

You know that as ladies we can be very emotional and of course that’s because we are emotional beings so who can blame us. We were created that way and sometimes our emotions can get the best of us.

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Let me tell us a little experience I had this week but it all started some months ago. Before I tell this story, I want to ask you a question, have you being heart broken before? I mean have you being inlove with a man before and he broke your heart? If you have then you may understand what am trying to buttress here but if you’ve not, you may understand but maybe not fully.

Some months ago, I was heart broken. Get the gist. I was madly in love with someone whom I thought I was going to spend the rest of my life with. You know ladies and all our fantasies. I had already drawn and imagined my wedding gown and how I was going to fit into it looking all gorgeous before the end of this year.

News flash, am still single hahaha but am alive and hale and hearty. Back to my story. With all this fantasies going on in my head, I received a shock of my life and the relationship ended in a very terrible way. I was devastated and heart broken but thanks to some of my friends who were there to catch me in my down times and gave me their shoulders to cry on.

I cried and cried until my tears ran over. I was broke days and into months. I was suddenly revived later but kept having relapses. It has been a rough year so far but am grateful for life.

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The reason am telling this story is because am better and stronger and I’ve not brought myself to tell it until now. The essence of this contest is to tell our story and what we learnt from the experiences. So down the line, I thought I had forgiven this guy and let him go but do you know that I didn’t really forgive and let go. Sometimes I always have the thought of wanting to revenge or do him bad or have God punish him small, just small for my sake. Hahahaha.

That means I haven’t really let go until some days ago. I was talking to a friend of mine and I was telling him that I usually feel like insulting my ex anytime I remember what he did to me. I was only good to him and didn’t deserve the kind of treatment he meted out to me.

My friend told me something that sounded very somehow. He said, I understand that feeling of wanting to insult him but since you can’t do it to him, why not go to God in prayer and tell God the way you feel and actually pour out your heart to God. He was saying I should insult the guy before God. Now this seems unconventional but I took his advice.

I came back two days after and that feeling of pain came back again, so I started crying and praying and telling God that I feel like insulting this guy and telling him that his foolish, crazy, senseless, wicked and for all the things he did to me. I kept pouring out my heart to God without reservations while crying.

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When I finished praying and crying, I dried my tears. Guess what it’s two days after and I have never felt the type of freedom I feel within me. It’s like a burden was lifted off my heart and now I can think about this guy and that pain is no longer there. I don’t wish him bad anymore and I feel very free within.

All because I let go and let God. I didn’t pretend before God and I wasn’t ashamed to tell him how I felt. I don’t know who is passing through what I passed through or still have something against anyone that offended you. Let go and let God. You would see that you freed a prisoner and that prisoner is you. I feel so free as a bird and forgiveness is always the way forward.

Thank you for reading through my story. Forgive and let GO. I ask @bessie20, @ngozi99 and @favouhycinth to participate in this contest.