Achievement 1 @sarahraudhah - My Introduction Post

Hello. Good day everyone. ❤️

First time uploading my real pic without sketching.

I'm Sara from Malaysia. I'm a Muslim in my early 30's. I'm married and we have a baby girl. 🥳

2 months after I gave birth. Finally I can walk on my own.

She's already a year old and loves to throw things. She would help me pick them up sometimes. If.. she feels like it. Like a boss she is. 😂😂

My baby 1st birthday.
I was crying in the bathroom just an hour before this cause I was scared no one will come to her birthday. Well, everyone came and really enjoy their time. 😅

I'm a bipolar disorder type II and I also have been taking insulin for my diabetes type II. I never thought that I would be a biological mother. I'm so blessed. 🥰🥰

I still live with my mother. Well, actually, there's 8 of us in the house that didn't include my husband. Thankfully we have 3 bathrooms and toilets. With 2 extra bedrooms.

Whenever I talk about my house, I feel like I'm having such a huge house. It isn't anything like that. We just live in a 'rumah pusaka' aka the house that pass down to generation. Well, it isn't a bungalow but it is big enough to accommodate all of us.

I'm working as a teacher. It's been nearly 10 years now. Though I said I'm a teacher, I don't have the diploma for it. I'm just a teacher cause I am. Now I'm working as a teacher in a religious primary school.

Sometimes I think me as a tutor. It's easier to explain. Especially the salary. A tutor might make more though. 😂

You can say that our school is somewhat having charity from others to get by. Though I would say it's better now than 7 years ago. We start having our own assets and invest. One step at a time.

And.. I also don't know how come with a minimum wage, I can still put away some for gold saving.

It's not much but hey, it's our asset. I'm not sure if gold saving is popular in your areas.

Maybe living together in a house have it perks when you can share everything. Cut down the cost.

Even though it wouldn't mean much to my salary but I'm hoping someday maybe I can take the diploma of childhood education. I'll feel more like a teacher. I love being a teacher. I love my kids. I love it when their eyes lit up when I praise them. So, maybe having a diploma would boast my confident. 💪

It's a bit pricey for me now. So, not yet. 🙈

I love reading and I love giving out hugs and kisses when someone need it. Literally and virtually. I like giving a little bit of love whenever I can. Sometimes my thoughts are beyond me. So, when I'm in control, I just like spreading love here and there.

I like expressing my thought too but sometimes it isn't really 'advise' here, in my city.

The people here is just more reserved. Like if you notice I haven't post my real pictures before? I can't. I'm scared. I'm not talking about new world order, ok. 🙊

But I think I prefer reserve than 'keyboard worriors' aka the internet bullies. Why can't they be nice? Maybe they're lonely?

With my personality, sometimes it hard for me to express myself. People often misunderstood me. So sometimes I just give up and pretend I didn't know.

Though I try my best to express myself to my husband. He is after all my husband. It's his job to listen to my everything, isn't it? Nah, it isn't that much. Or is it? 😂😂

I also try my best not to judge on people as I also dislike of being judge. Had been in my whole life.

Oh, some day maybe I'll write about my pregnancy. I'm still a bit traumatic by it. Maybe writing about it could help me make amends with myself.

❤️❤️ I could only see her on the 3rd day cause I couldn't move. I had bed arrest.

I love my baby and husband very much but my pregnancy has put a toll on my body. I still couldn't start my exercise routine that I often did before I got pregnant. It's scary.

Even my uncle who has 9 kids told me that he hope I don't get pregnant again. He said he couldn't bear to watch me. I was as big as a walrus. Not whale. Walrus. Cause I like to sing like one. Not on purpose. I'm bad at singing. I can only sing nursery rhymes. Still, I sing.

I also like to dance and yes, I'm only good at slow dance. 😂😂

I think I have written too many hopes here but can I please add more? 🙈

For Steemit, I hope I can express myself more freely. I can feel more freely when I feel like nobody really knew me. No judging eyes. 😂😂

I was active 5 months ago then school started. With Covic-19 going on, school is more stressful especially when our school is not being fund by the government. We teachers has to do everything by ourselves. The reasons we stay are because we love our workplace and we love our kids.

Some left of course. Family comes first. We're not mad. We still contact each others. They were nice to give us some donations after they get better job.

May everyone stay warm and stay strong during this pandemic.

Even my husband lost his job. Though the good news is, we can finally live together. We were living separately before because of our jobs. I'm excited and nervous thinking of staying together with him.

I want to drag him here on @steemit with me. He said he'll think about it. 😅

Thanks @cryptokannon for not giving up on me.

The pictures of me which you might see online.

I'm using Polish for my pictures and also Pencil Sketch app. Can't live without it. Pencil Sketch is like my make up when I'm online and I really3 want to post my pictures. See how confident I got? 😂😂
I got both on Play Store. 😉

PS: Sorry for the overdose of 😂😂. That's literally me. 🙈🙈