Hi @cvrle so sad to read these lines here about your close friend, death should not reach out and grab such young folks they have so much to discover before them in their lifes.
keep cool and level headed as you can see and feel life can be so short, enjoy every moment and don´t think so much about things you can not change.
Ah and best wishes for Sanja to her Birthday !
a lot of hugs for you from the south of spain ;)