Sosnovka is a settlement in the Vologda district of the Vologda region, is the center of a rural settlement. Vologda is 20 km away. Residents – 2300 people.

I visited Sosnovka for the first time two years ago, but I didn't even suspect that I would ever get to these yards.

I was actively studying Vologda at that time and did not even suspect that I would be walking here at night for the same purpose.

The next visit was at the end of May this year.

An exhibition of retro cars was held here and I decided to show old cars to my children.

After the holiday, I drove around the village. This was a forced measure, as the roads were blocked due to the bike ride and the retro car parade.

I had to look for an alternative path, which accidentally passed near a huge number of dugouts.

And from that moment on, I wanted to come here for a specific purpose.

I was afraid I wouldn't be able to get around all the places I needed in one evening, but everything went well.

Do you think only you have questions, but why take so many photos of courtyards and post posts about it with such frequency?

Do you think I want it myself?

All the circumstances that led me to this.

If I reacted this way to other spaces, for example, a night forest or a field, then I would be led to the fact that I would take pictures of it, and then write about my feelings.

There is no direct message from above that I should definitely do this.

There is an indirect understanding here that if I feel so vividly, and then share it, and even draw some conclusions, then it means I have to do it.

And if I stop being like that, I will lose myself, which will be almost equivalent to death.

Why be surprised? We are surrounded by many corpses in life. It seems like a person walks, talks, does something, but there is no life in him...it's empty inside, there's nothing.

Here's the answer: to live, to feel everything around, I have to shoot it and write about it.

And if you don't like it, then I'm sorry. This is my diary, and there is no point in the rules to please others.

Yes, and the contradiction turns out, if I please others, I will lose myself.

It won't be me even then. I will do everything through the prism of someone else's opinion, like it or not.

I don't need to flatter my ego, I don't need to be loved at all.

This is the only way I can prove myself if I drop all the bindings, glances, stereotypes.

And the fact that I am focused only on myself is not selfishness.

Selfishness is just doing things to please others.

You can't even imagine what lies behind these pictures!

And I can't talk about it...