I don't find your dream weird at all but I wonder why you broke the lamp! Did I ever ignore what I knew or saw? Once as I was about 7-8 years old and walking on the streets. I saw a lady walk in front of me and new she would die soon. I decided that I wouldn't tell and said: this isn't what I want to know.
It was silent for longer.
With the rest I lived and it doesn't scare me. If your read me once in a while you know who my best friend is posting at my bed. And the lamps? Some refuse to work for months and suddenly burn again. I am totally fine with it.
Dreams? Not what others dream it's more the time of writing and to reunite.

I agree with the remark made that there's something you should figure out or better decide. Instead of ignoring the question should be: what do you want from me?