In my last year in the university of Buea I was forced to go through some really tough times. At that same moment or say that season I got in contact with alot of amazing people. Well lets I can say God brought this people my way. I was so eager to learn and improve my skills and knowledge about music, Life and physics generally.

The more I drew close to this guys I noticed I was never really learning anything from them. I tried so hard to humble myself before them in other to learn at the end of the day I found myself always teaching and exalting them. Well I was a little dissappointed at some point becuase I have always wanted people to lead and guide me instead, so that I might avoid the alot of the responsibility and accountability that comes with leadership. Well I ended up severing alot of those relationships just so that I wouldn't have to think of anyone as my responsibility.

Last year about October, I came up to bamenda to apply for a masters degree program. One of the main reasons was because I didnt want anyone depending so much on me. So I had to school somewhere were people knew little about me. However during the course of the year, God had to make me perform so excellently in classes so much so that many teachers would come announce my marks during class times. I wasn't very happy about this but however in this I learned some important lesson which is that The gift of God in a man is a Light that is kindled to show forth God's excellence it cannot be hidden.

M.sc Physics 2020/2021 UBA

Due to teachers announcing my results in class alot of people started making friends with me. Many people came with the intention of me helping them academically. Gradually I started realising that what I ran away from in buea followed me to Bamenda!

I decided to pray about the issue. Well during the course of prayer I was posed with two Choices

1. Loose the Knowledge you have been given and the responsibility would be taken away
   OR
2. Keep the Knowledge and bear the responsibility.

These two choices where difficult ones. Well I decided to choice the second becuase I didnt want to loose the knowledge I had gotten. It was at this point that the Lord had to remind me that.

FOR EVERY GIFT THERE IS A RESPONSIBILITY. AND THE RESPONSIBILITY IS TO SERVE OTHERS WITH IT

I decided to finally accept the gift of knowledge and the responsibility that came with it. I started helping others. During exam periods my classmates will call me up to do tutorials for them. In fact I started falling in Love with helping others becuase I noticed that in the course of teaching others God also improved and increased my knowledge. So anytime am teaching am learning more than the people whom I am teaching.

conversations with fellow classmates

The these went on for a while most of my class mates referred to me as Spirit of Excellence. That was the name that was on whatsapp status lol, but they truly meant the name. It seemed Like every subject or topic that was taught in class I could seemingly understand it. Well this marvelled them alot. But they did not know that I was more marvelled about what God was doing with me than them even. I dont know how I was capable of understand this things.

Alot of amazing things happened during the time of the school year but something happened that broke my heart so much. When the final results of the school came out everyone who I had taught did really better than me. My results where not very good for me. So I was so sad! I decided to pray becuase I was not happy. In the evening of that day. Most of my class mates called me and where thank me for helping them. I reluctantly accepted their thanks. I wasnt very comfortable. Alot of them where so surprised about my results.

Discussing with a fellow classmate about my results

God was working out something for me that I wasn't aware of. I was so focused of the situation at hand that I loosed sight of God's ultimate faithfulness and kindness. Two days after the results had been released a communique was posted on my class group about a science international seminar that was to be held in Yaounde. The HOD of our department told the students of my class to selected a representative for this seminar, someone whom the know is capable of representing the class properly. To My greatest surprise even before he finished explaining the details of the seminar, all the students in classes started posting my Name on the group and telling the HOD that I was competent for this job.

The HOD contacted me that even asking me why everyone was voting me on the group. I started explaining how I use to carry out tutorials with them. He was so marvelled and he congratulated me and told me that he would be glad if I could accept to lead the University of Bamenda Physics association which a gladly accepted.

I finally understood the lessons of Responsibility
"Every responsibility carries a corresponding glory.
If you drop your responsibility you drop your glory.
Honor is only a post effect of upheld responsibility

ACCEPT YOUR RESPONSIBILTY AND YOU WILL EARN REAL GLORY

DISCLAIMER: this is not a means to brag or be boastful but it is a way to encourage you to keep doing the good your doing. There is real glory waiting for you on the other side.