I strongly suggest this book.
Complex PTSD - From Surviving to Thriving by Pete Walker

It has a huge amount of important words that will explain what is going on inside your head.

I know you didn't go much into what your conditions or triggers were, and I haven't gone much into how I know the book is appropriate, but I can tell you that I have heard the same story from many other people. Including the bad psychologist. (the psychology industry doesn't even want to look at CPTSD, because it explains and so much, and would shrink the DSM to the size of a pamphlet. And other nefarious reasons)

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