WHO AM I?

Who am I? It's a big question mark in itself as life keeps bringing a new personality in oneself as we pass this cycle of life.

I would like to call myself an imperfection-''ist'' at this moment because that's how I feel about myself. Or that's what I believe what others think of me. The reason I am here is I need to get rid of all the auto generated million thoughts that knock the door of my head every single second.

But coming to the sensitive reason, I don't know how many of you feel same the way I just mentioned above, how many of you overthink on every single word that comes out of people you care about, how many of you feel sad when you can't control the thinking process of your head, how many of you think of hurting yourselves when you don't get people's approval, how many of you think you are not good enough every time you breathe or how many of you tend to zone out while working in your office, or attending a lecture or working in the lab.

Probably, just 1% of you or 80% or it's just me. I have always been a people person, always appreciated myself through other people's opinions. If they say, "l'm good, then yes I am good". I lack in loving my own self. I feel sad for myself now. Because now I am on the verge of losing my own identity, and I don't want to do that. Because people are fucking fickle minded. They really don't care about anyone. People change as fast as Berlin's weather. So, fuck them. Fuck everybody who has ever made us feel bad about ourselves. Today is the day where I want to appreciate myself. Today is the day when I breathe without thinking. Just breathe.
And Today is the day where I appreciate the people who have been there for me, to my amazing friends, to every moment when I felt content in myself.

I found out about steemit through my dear friends @things and @sjennon. At first, I was a bit reluctant, you can understand from above as to why; but then I made this rough draft and I felt a thousand pounds lighter. Perhaps, steemit will be my ultimate remedy.

Getting shitfaced at wine fest with @things @sjennon

I plan to write about my lab experiences (being a full time chemist) to lazy days where I feel shit about life (being a full time lazy ass), my dance love to my weird relationship with food, from being smart with my colleagues to being super silly and crazy with my best friend (@things), about life, love, nonsense, and what not!

just being us "crazy"

How I feel about my first steemit post.

So that's me. Dualnatured mofo.

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^{Written by @dualnature and edited by @things, 2017. All rights reserved.}