thank you anna for sharing that personal story. check out a channel on youtube called youarecreators. it seems to fit in with your life philosophy and you may be able to gleam some gems from that channel. also glad to see you started meditating. what kind of meditation do you practice? I practice TM w/some visualization thrown in the mix. anyway, at the very least, meditation will relieve stress and reverse the aging process (for real, science has show daily meditation practice to lengthen telomeres and slow down cellular degeneration!) anyway, think I'm going to post some of my spokenword pieces soon so if that kind of stuff interests you, stop by and take a peek.