SERENDIPITY

To begin with, I am broken but still dreaming. Full of them, you guys want some? I'm not good in this kind of thing. Took me so long to creat this one. Mother of three but remains single. Living in a roller coaster ride of life. I'm still searching my own self. For I do not know which to conquer first. I used to work in an office but left my job about three years ago. At the moment I earn our living by joining bazaars and selling online.
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I got scam and lost my savings, got bankcraft, had to closed my concept store one by one. Was not able to pay my bills and lost it all.

With just one snap everything change.

I become moody, I easily get irritated and even grew a monster in me.
I became a monster mom. This is the darkest part of me.

I start asking Him, why of most people He chose me to suffer? I just want to provide everything for my children. But he took it from me one by one.

As the monster inside of me grow bigger and bigger, my eldest remains the same to me. Despite all of the words, treatment and being a monster mom to her, my eldest still show how much she loves me.

One day I saw her work, a master piece for me, a scrath to others or a piece of junk. Tears started to run down, I felt guilty. (sorry I cannot show her work) I always say "I will be the best mom for my children" " They won't experience what I experienced."

It is getting late and emotions is killing me. Hope I can continue introducing myself before being judge.