Me Yesterday VS. Me Today My Past Lives (SWC)

Hello Steemian,

I am Marie A typical simple, loner girl who live in a simple place before in Cogeo Antipolo city Philippines. Im just here to tell my Story in my Past Lives, Way Back i was 14 years old i didn't realize that i was a good daughter to my parents, I accidentally saw my Photo album looking my self when i was in Kinder and i have lot's of Awards inserting the Medal that i got for the 3rd Honor, Never imagine that i get those kind of rewards when i was a child.

When the Time pass by i grew up always doubting my self that i am not good enough being a student a child to my parent's a friend to others and as a person, I Grew up full of negativity in my self may be because my parents dont show love to me, They are not so showy for there feelings being a parents. And that time it is very important to me, im always longing for love and care.

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In School i always Walk alone, Eat alone, Go Home after class ALONE No friends to be with who i cant talk with my misery being a loner. I dont know how to escape this feeling and to the point that sometimes kill my life but my heart keep saying that you have a purpose in this world.

Then suddenly an accident came in to my Life that trigger my loneliness when my mother died in homicide, Im not there to help her, My feeling was in pain mix emotion that the only person who always in my side are totally gone, Me and my mom are not so close but she's the only person who look with me when im was studying in my high school life.

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This Problem didn't stop there, That time i never know what to do the way to escape is to get engage early, Im 17 years old that time, I got Pregnant and have my own kids at a very young age. There was a time that i have no work and my son's are very hungry asking for a food all i did is cry because i dont know what to do, I have no money at all even centavos in my pocket,

That time a i realized that i need to be more strong for my kids, Instead of Crying again, Let me share a Heart melting scenario in my Life, My eldest son come to me and said "Mother im Very Hungry" "Can you give me just 6 pesos to buy a bread"
While His pulling my T-shirt downwards I am Broke and I cry inside but i didn't show it to my Son instead i look for something i have to sell on Junk shop a Speaker and i sell it only in 150 Pesos just enough to buy something for my eldest son.

I did not know That being a parents is hard mostly being broke is the most hard part if you have already a family you cant just say happiness is ok, For you to be happy and make your family happy you need to have a balance life Happiness and money.

There is a saying that Money Cant buy Happiness That is right but for you to be happy and make your love ones happy you need certain amount of money to do that. Money is Good if you use it in right way. From that scenario in my Life i told to my self it will never be happen again. Enough of being a Victim, I made a brave decision That From now own It will never be happening again,

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And to make my pass live short i meet the opportunity, The opportunity that helps me go strong as a Women a opportunity that teach me How to fight my loneliness my misery. I follow some successful filipino people here in philippines Mr. Chinkee Tan Mr. Joseph Lim and The Girl who made millions while doing the things she want is Ms. Tanya Morales

This opportunity Save me, Save me in all negativity feeling in my Past Lives, Now I learned to make Friends to others, Interact with daily activities and this opportunity helps me to be more strong and set my goals being a person and as a woman.

Being a woman who have a big dreams is hard You have to many obstacle to deal with, I am a woman full of dreams and i am a woman who's passionate of making my dreams into reality, I am eager to pursue what i wanted to be and now im always ready in different challenges that came into my life.

In my Past Lives i compare my self as a turtle So slow and i am always hiding in my shell so Afraid to go outside i cant even express my feelings because im too scared that i might do something wrong.

Then now i am very thankful in my Past Lives Because it made me more stronger now. I can even express my feelings, My Past Lives will never let me down and i
make it as a weapon for me to move forward, Little by little to achieve my goals.

The toughest thing here is being a mom, A simple word but very meaningful and so powerful, I cant even explain how i did it, How i pass my obstacle being a mother. All i can remember is I LOVE my family i LOVE my kids, Love makes me a superwoman for my family.

What I have learned in my past life is never end your Life just because you feel that your not worth it to live in this world. Make all of your sorrow and misery be your motivations it will help you to move forward and to be a better person in the near future and here i am today Living in in the place where i belong a place that never in my wildest dream that i can talk in front of too many people sharing my Past Lives and motivating Them also to become a better person Like me.