A brave and loving soul has asked, "How are you doing. What are you feeling?"
My reply (I want to share)
"Just awful. Yesterday was the end of the world. Everything was empty with no meaning. Cut off. There was nowhere to turn. I was forced to admit the only shelter is Krishna but He was nowhere to be found. It was awful. I tried to read and chant but passed out. Now I am awake next morning and I have some resilience. Thank you for asking.
I am not bewildered anymore by these intense experiences and can be patient and wait for the mercy. People in general do not want these experiences. They think there is something wrong with them, because it gets in the way of productivity. So it is a soul-killing culture. I can see more and more clearly. Our spiritual master (Srila Gaurahari Das) is very powerful like this. Thank you for asking how I am doing. ❤️
So happy you are taking shelter of Srila Gaurahari Das. It's a bumpy ride. You will see. Just when I think I have everything figured out... there is something new.
