Sometimes ... we allow ourselves to put our guard down ..... we allow ourselves to open up .... for me that is very out of character..... there aren’t many people I can do that with.....some people ( very few people ) think I really care about what others think ... that’s not really true ... I ONLY care about what the ones I love think about me ... I care about what my Kids think ..... bc they truly are my entire world .... I have an obligation to them .....What my family thinks , because I know how important things are to them ..... i also care about what 1 of my friends thinks about me .... it’s strange tho .... bc I never really worried what he thought about me before .... I always felt that no matter what I said or did .... it didn’t matter .... he knew me well enough not to judge ...etc. .... I could never do wrong .... I’m not sure it’s still the same .... but that’s out of my control ...
I have learned over the years you can’t worry about what everyone else says and thinks .... it just matters what your loved ones think ..... and hopefully ... those people you love .... love you back and accept you ... no matter what you say ... hopefully your loved ones don’t judge .... they aren’t supposed to ... they are supposed to love you ... unconditionally.... but that too can be flawed .