I'm single, and fairly newly and abruptly so. In fact, I had plans to invite my ex to hang with me for a bit to stave off the loneliness.
I was expecting that part of my paychecks for the month were coming because this is a lonely gig. I'm alone in a dark room with a machine for over sixty hours a week.
Still, although some loneliness sets in from time to time, it's not persistent.
If anything, I'm being affirmed that I am worth something to a lot of people.
People who never met me in person have driven from out of state to meet me, and see what's going on. I've even made new friends.
My steps forward in life have never been clearer and more obtainable.
I still have a lot of big decisions to make; but, my future has never been more in my own hands.
This isn't to say that I haven't lived a blessed and privileged life; but, I've lacked the maturity that I have now at important times. Sometimes, the maturity and the resources didn't line up right.
I don't think that I've been this fulfilled in my life. I may have been happier from time to time. Fulfilment is a different thing. I also think that it's more important.
I'm being respected, not because I'm somehow entitled to that treatment, but because I'm doing something that people value. I'm contributing to something worthwhile in a meaningful way. I'm building up resources to make another work of art that I've wanted to make for years during this process. I still have a day job that values me to come back to. I'm also building my own business on my terms.
Yeah, this is a good time to be alive for me.