Same Sky

There we go again…Nothing in my life seems to be going in the right direction. It seems like every few years, this entity that I used to call ‘bad luck’ remembers me. I try hard to cover my tracks with absolutely no success. The entity finds me, it gets closer and closer, slowly and quietly…and before I even notice, everything looks a mess. My grandmother used to tell me that I smell like spring flowers…and I always wondered…could it be my smell? Or maybe, the fact that I laugh so loud that I sometime I annoy the people around me? I will never know.
I have this situation now: made redundant, air conditioning broken, washing machine barely doing its job, problems with car, arguments with husband, and above all, my 5 year old daughter’s favorite teddy just disappeared, vanished into thin air…
Not the ideal situation and again… I just didn’t see it coming. But guess what??? I am now prepared, because I know that in the end it will just go…
I look at the sky…the same sky that was there last month when everything was fine. Same sky, same house, same cat, same me. I will not allow myself to feel overwhelmed. I have decided to enjoy the day, to embrace this experience. I will not label it as bad luck, disaster, bad period.
You see, when everything goes smooth we tend to weaken. This is why I now call the not ideal periods the perfect time for working out your soul, your senses, your empathy, your humanity. I just need it in order for me to become stronger and better. I am a prepared soldier and I will win this battle…again.
I am enjoying my coffee. My senses have suddenly sharpened, the adrenaline is rushing through my veins. I smile. I am blessed again. I am awake and looking forward to the good times. I will win again and after this experience will be coming to an end I will be even more beautiful.
Same sky…today I smile at you!!!