My heart is just beating irregularly at this moment. Maybe because I have a high elevation of Potassium in my body because I was always eating a piece of fruit with my meals and that I am not getting enough dialysis treatments even though I am dialyzed using a high flux dialyzer.
Now I just end-up watching videos and a bit of day trading just to pass time because I could not possibly sleep. I will try to get some shut-eye maybe this morning if again I will feel that I am sleepy.
I also hope that my heart would not stop or else I will not be able to achieve my life goals. But of course if I would leave this world because of a conking heart then that is just about it, my story begins in the afterlife, hopefully with God.
But for now I am still happy and full of hope in my heart and maybe soon great changes will happen in my life. My life had been so interesting and dully colorful, it is both hated and loved (and ignored) by me and others.
I am just doing my best to alleviate the things that bothers me and I hope that God gives me more mercy so that I can be able to achieve the things that in this point are just a dream.