Good luck my friend! I admire your determination and commitment to embodying your gifts. They say the grass is always greener on the other side, and when you're given only one body/mind/spirit with which to travel this earth, everything feels somewhat other, but trying your hand at many things is not an endeavor done in vain! I think the only way to truly find yourself is to first figure out what you're not.
Here's to you, your life, and your precious time.