We keep going down the same path and the more we dig into the past and argue over it the more I become convinced that he made a mistake and yet he won't admit it. I keep telling myself he wanted to rekindled because he loved me and that he genuinely wants to be with me but yet my gut tells me otherwise. Like any girl in love I gave my trust and I gave my all to the relationship but now that I think back to it I gave too much to someone who was obviously never in love with me. I'll admit that he probably did have feelings for me once but once she came into the picture I simply became just the girl who gave him problems that he didn't want to discuss and instead turned to her as his mat to sweep me and our problems under. I look back at all the memories I have of myself crying and feeling depressed makes me sick but the more I write about the emotions I had about this breakup makes the weight a little lighter of all the hate, jealousy and anger I had and have for the girl he chooses over me almost everyday(it feels like). I've never been the jealous type believe me, I was never this way but I think for anyone out there that has had their heartbroken and trust that once you decide to rekindle again it's so hard to trust in that person again and that's my problem. He chose a girl in his words it's so much like him and who he enjoys talking to making me feel like chopped liver. I decided to write this on here not for sympathy but just for a way for me to get some of my anger out there and just share a piece of me with whoever may read this!
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