Northern Star — SteemCN

Northern Star
Tell me what we had wasn't real and I will tell you a story of us in which makes it real. Tell me that the love we shared wasn't real and I will reply for you the best parts of us that proves our loves existence. Tell me that the connection we have isn't real and I will dance our energy upon your body to show the vary blueprint of our connection. Give me a reason to let go and I will show you a hundred ways our love is a “one of a kind.” For we have the kind of love in which challenges our soul while making our bodies weak at the knees. Our love is that vary love in which we hear about in fairy tales; the vary love that wakes sleeping beauty; the vary love in which changes the beast into that of a prince. This is what I believe our love to be; a love worth spending the rest of my days fighting for even if at the end I am not standing hand and hand with you. For at least then I will know I gave you, our love, our future my all; without backing down, without giving up; without looking back with that of regrets. If there anything this life has taught me it would be that we cannot undo that in which we have already done but what I can do is change the future; our future. No longer shall I push these feelings aside for you are my light; my northern star shining bright through my darkest hours while always guiding me back to you. We have no way of truly knowing whether or not we are just crazy but I for one am willing to spend the rest of my days dancing crazy if it's dancing crazy with you in my arms.
By Kelly Clegg
11/25/16
00:14:16

Those pretty words and those pretty names are icing on the cake you feed my soul. Giving me diabetes, you're no good for me. Toxic in a way that's so sweet. I can't breathe when I think about our intensity, the lust, love, but you're consumed with greed... I know what you can't see. Something I'm not sure you'll ever be able to see.

Past yourself

Into what's really important.

So many times you bashed those that came before you for exactly what you're doing. The string of sugar coated promises but you forgot something. I'm not just me. You forgot that he comes before me and in not seeing that I can protect myself from getting lost in the fantasy that is your lack of the true reality.

I've always said I'd never let anything or anyone truely hurt him. Your indifference did just that . Your broken strings of promises cutting the marrionette parts of my heart...making it that much easier to keep you at that distance.

Heartbreaker I'm not your northern Star I'm your compass and your a magnet....

You abandoned me to spin spiral, cascade into a hole that I've dug out of without you only to try to edge back in... But you know what's really sticking out?

He stopped asking about you, not because it hurt me, but because you hurt him with your separation and indifference. So many broken promises so many wasted words with no actions. He idolized you And now knows what not to do in the case of a break up with kids. You said you wanted to teach him... I was hoping it wasn't the book on how not to leave... Was hoping all those whispers of forever meant something... I've lost hope