Not for the faint of heart

This is 20-year-old Kaylee Muthart, a woman now known for gouging her eyes out with her own hands whilist high on methamphetamine on February 6th of 2018. Now, I could list the many side effects of meth-induced psychosis but no one really knows the mental turmoil of these effects until they've been through it themselves. I actually admire Kaylee alot...not only because shes still positive after detoxing but for what she did while she was high. Her reason for blinding herself was:

"I thought everyone who had died was stuck in their graves, that God was up in Heaven alone, and that I had to sacrifice something important to be able to release everyone in the world to God."

That quote will forever send chills down my spine. I've abused my fair share of stimulants and have experienced erradict, irrational thought processes before but they are dwarfed by this delirium. What I admire, though, is that in her deep state of psychosis that she did in fact make the sacrifice she thought was necessary to free billions of trapped souls. In that instance, she was a martyr for mankind. Most people are being selfish when they're being impulsive but not even in this twisted state of mind did she consider letting the souls stay trapped in their dirt encased prisons.
Kaylee traded her sight for what she believed was right. and that is ,honestly, amazing to me. I truly believe she deserves a Nobel Peace Prize but we all know that won't happen. Kaylee is still getting used to her new life but says that she'd rather be blind and 'back to her oldself' than to have sight and be high still.

This actually reminds me of a similar story(similar in being morbid but just) where Andre Johnson, a rapper affiliated with the Wu Tang Clan, cut off a good portion of his penis at a North Hollywood party on April 16, 2014. Andre was under the influence of a combination of mdma, alcohol, pcp, meth, and sleep deprivation when he got a knife, cut off more than half of his member, and threw himself off the second story of the 'PCP party' house. He almost bled out but was saved. The serrated part of his member, unfortunately, wasn't saved but he says he still can get intimate with a woman. His reasonings are really what is important here. He is quoted as saying:

"I was high as a mother****ing man, with no sleep and just frustrated cause I could not talk to my babies...
.....And I'm paying like three child support payments and I'm seeing none of my kids, and I really thought for that moment in time that I really hurt myself by not having a vasectomy or whatnot.....I was going to give myself one."

In essence, Andre wanted to end the cycle of him having children, neglecting their mothers, and subsequently not being able to see his children. If you dig into the story and watch the longest videos, he admits to being a womanizer and that he thought the root of all his problems was his genitalia. Andre doesn't deserve the Nobel Peace Prize IMO but he recognized that he was hurting the women in his life, his children, and himself by living a hedonistic 'rapper' lifestyle. His act wasn't as selfless as Kaylee's but if he truly was what he was pretending to be, he wouldn't have cared at all about his children or their mothers or even the child support payments. Being apart of or affiliated with Wu Tang Clan pretty much gurantees that you'll be well off and able to afford said payments many times over IF YOU PLAY YOUR CARDS RIGHT. Which Andre obviously didn't as Wu Tang has since distanced themselves from him due to the negative PR.

The point here is that drugs can sway perception in ways none of us can imagine. I, myself, have actually seen a friend of mine's face split into two faces and then re-attach into one during the peak of a pscilocybn mushroom trip. It wasn't whacky or fun at all, and I just re-affirmed myself that I was 'just tripping' and to 'hold it together'. But who we are deep deep down at our core never leaves us. It might get muffled and downright silenced by some chemicals we happen to ingest but its always there and these two reported stories(out of many many unreported stories) are living proof.

Ever lost your fucking mind? Lets talk about it below.