Music to calm my chaotic mind.

I am one of those blessed people with a very chaotic mind and the attention span of a fruit fly. I go from left to right in a blink of an eye and before I even notice it myself I am back in the middle only to turn left or right again after ten more seconds. Some people might have problems with having a chaotic mind or even with me and how my mind works but I love my chaotic self. I love how I get the most strange idea's on the most awkward moments like yesterday while I was reading in a very amusing book while being in the smallest room of the house. One moment I am doing my business while reading while the next I almost jump up wondering something weird about President Kennedy who got shot on 22-11-63. So I made a promise to myself to go on the internet after washing my hands to look things up but of course I ended up doing something totally different. 

Yupp, the moment I walked to my laptop I crossed paths with my bunny so I started to play with him for a while before I got up to what might have looked like reaching for my laptop but I ended up popping a lolliepop into my mouth while I saw this plot for a great murdering story in my head and I had to write that down, because as a person who loves to write short horror stories you kinda need to make notes! So, I picked up my notebook and pen to write it down but ended up doodling instead because why not! The hell with it! I love my chaotic mind and often it makes me giggle because I mess things up a whole lot! I embrace myself and love myself for who I am. 

But in saying that, I also need structure in my life otherwise it will go to hell! ( Even though I think I will end there anyways.) I have to set my alarm every single morning to get up otherwise I sleep the whole day. I prefer to go to bed on the same time every day as well for the same reason. But, I also hate structure. I like to be free and do what makes me happy at every moment of the day. I like to draw, better yet, I love to draw! But I need focus to be able to concentrate on my art because its not done in 15 minutes. Some of my drawings seriously take days, others go from 5 to 12 hours. And trust me I tried many things to calm my mind to be able to sit down and just draw but nothing really works for me accept one thing : MUSIC. 

Music is my drug and I really need it to be able to work. It also works the other way! if I start to listen to happy hardcore or trance my mind will go in overload and I will lose myself but mostly not in a good way. The sound does not have to be hard, just a soft background with for me relaxing music and I can handle the day like a pro! Trust me I do function in this world we are all sharing with each other! I might not always function like others would like to see a person function but I really do not care! 

I am a big Prodigy fan and listening to their music puts my chaotic mind in a really weird state! So beware because of course I have listened to all these clips while writing this post! Can you guess what I am going to do now?