My Father passed away this morning. It was a long time coming. He had been sick with Parkinson's and dementia for several years. A slow decline over the last few years made me intimately aware of how he was doing physically. I knew a few days ago, that it was time and have known for a while that it was coming.
Today and the last few days have been particularly hard on my mother and brother and sisters. It has been hard for me, but as I have been with him for the last two years helping to take care of him I have slowly come to grips with it. Knowing that this would be a relief for him has made it a relief for me.
Belief
I am not really a religious person. I find wisdom in many ancient religious texts, but could not be really categorized into any of them as I often find wisdom in the symbology that is taken literally by many. It is not because of religion or belief, but because of experience and a deep knowing that I say that death is not the end. I know many people see this as a belief that we use to comfort ourselves and that may often be the case. I don't think this is the case with me. I only want the truth.
To believe something because it is comfortable seems a despicable thing to do as far as I can see. For many years I was an atheist and nothing seemed more clear to me. Only over time and reflection and many experiences and testing of theories and ways of being have I come felt that I have come closer to the truth about life and death. Like everything else in this polar physical reality, we must know one to know the other, even though in the deeper reality, the two are a way of measuring and understanding the one thing.
Thank You
He was many things to many people. To me, he was a father, a teacher, a confidant, a comforter in the hardest times, a motivator when needed the most, and a friend in the truest sense of the word. He showed me so much. His guidance, patience, and love for me are a blessing and a gift that I cannot fathom ever being deserving of.
Very sorry for you and your family's loss. I lost my dad many years ago, and he was by far my best friend and the closest person to me. He was a simple man and I never knew him to tell me a lie, even the smallest one to save my feelings. When he died on the operating table, and was later brought back, he described to me (and only me, because he was embarrassed) what he experienced while he was gone. He recovered and lived several years past that. He made a 360 degree change in his life, seeming to realize much more the importance of taking a neighbor kid fishing, or nursing an animal back to health. It was amazing to me how much he had changed. He was able to glimpse what the next life holds and he wanted to be there. It was, and still is, comforting for me to know that he is happy and somewhere better than this reality. We still fish together in my dreams, every so often, both of us winking because we know it isn't real...but content to let the visit play out...and just catch a few fish together and laugh.
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My heart goes out to you in the deepest way. I appreciate your honest words here. That kind of honesty is all too rare these days. I am blessed to know that you are the type of son who would give so much to your father in taking care of him for so long. @jacobts and I were talking about that in KC a while back.
I know that you will be doing your best to console your mother and siblings.
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Very sorry to hear this Richard, i offer a boxing program for people with Parkinsons st my gyms so i know how hard it can be. Much love to you and your family.
Religious or not, I believe your father is in a better place with no more pain.
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That is interesting. Thank you for the kind words.
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You're welcome.
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I'm sorry to hear that... I hope you and your family find strenght to get trough this. It's all part of life.
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Definitely... Thank you.
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I send you so so so much❤️ and peace for your Dad!! 🌸
It might be the right moment for you to read this book :
Download PDF https://www.google.co.id/amp/www.holybooks.com/the-tibetan-book-of-the-dead-2/amp/
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This book has been popping up for me for a few years. Maybe it is time. Thank you!
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I am sorry that I didn't reply earlier but I hope the book will give you some peace
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So sorry for your loss :(
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Thank you
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You are more than welcome, focus on the good times they will get you through :)
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My condolences.
This is a powerful testimony.
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So sorry to hear. Our
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I don't know where the second half of my comment went, but it was supposed to say "Our thoughts are with you"
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Very sorry to hear about your loss. I wish I had something wise to offer. I hope you and yours find peace soon.
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I'm so sorry for your loss. I've been missing your posts in the fitness challenge, and now i know why. I pray your family finds comfort and peace in this time.
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all I can say, It's a part of life mate @richardcrill
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I'm very sorry to hear about your loss. He sounds like an incredible father. I admire your willingness to express yourself honestly during this difficult time.
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We love you. Even though you may not believe, i believe enough for u and Lindsey both so i pray continually each day for Gods Good grace to envelope you and keep you from harm. To keep you safe. To comfort you. You are wise, kind and good . you walked this journey with your father and you will be able to go on easier because of that. So sorry that the journey could not have been easier for him. Glad he had you close. Xo
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