living and death

I have repeated this question in my head many times.Now I realize that everyone who answers the question is different.For some people, I can see the reasons of happiness, love, love, despair, despair, exam, suffering and other reasons. I can not find the answer to this. I am very clear that the answer of the things that keep me alive is as long as I am hopeful I have as much dreams as life coma from life. As I try to fulfill my dreams and hopes all I have is hard thoughts everything is so hard but this time I will vazgecmiyememiyim this time my life is blissed ı am living now dıyebılmek I do not want to be a living being. I need to realize our dreams and hopes