I sit here absolutely lost in a changing world.   To much information coming at me from all directions.  I feel lost in a sea of screaming souls trying to stand out and be uniquely noticed among the rest.   I feel helplessly swept up by the tides moving from north to south east to west.    Opinions are flaring and chances of being misdirected are high.  Confusion sits on a thrown above the masses in a rob of silver and gold with moving numbers in 1's and o's behind his eyes.   

The sound of humanity is loud and near piercing from earth in my head.   My mind stretches out to the empty space beyond our sphere of life and the nothingness is ...... with no words to describe, I sit and I wait here.    I see the lights in the distance.  Life is in the distance.    I want to join in, but I do not understand where I fit or belong.   I want to burst out myself like a supernova so powerful all the other lights notice.     Why?  

Everything feels like its at our finger tips right there for the touching, but there are pieces missing or maybe there is a wall, or a sheet of glass you can see through but you cant seem to get through it.  Why is there a pull so strong toward something you cant even describe cause you just dont have any clue to understanding it.   When people try to explain there ideas of life in groups there can be a great excitement in the air.  It can be about dreams, exploration and discovery and bring togetherness and solution and creativity, and other times it can bring judgement and these walls or obstructions that cause confusion, rejection and pain, the lights dim and darkness brews to cold and motionless for joy.    There can be a sea of life around you in all directions and nothing moving because everyone is to afraid to bump into each other.   There are fish that bite, fish that shock you and fish that latch on and dont let go, there are fish that will swallow you whole.      Where do I belong?  Where do you belong?   Are we defined by your numbers, our ranks our whale, dolphin and minnow status?    

With such a grime tone there must be that equal harmonic ring of hope in my head.    The world is ever changing, nothing is ever the same, not the air, not the sun, not the sky, and def not the hearts of near 8 billion humans from one moment to the next.      There is much I am not content to know I will never understand, but out in the void of space sitting in my mind looking at the lights from afar, I think about the rush feelings of love when you meet that one person that sparks your soul, the smell of a warm fresh baked pie in the oven, or the smell of flowers in the garden, or the fresh earthy natural taste of a ripe and plump cherry tomato right off the vine.   I think about the invigoration of cold water on a hot day jumping into this hard to find local swim hole here in the mountains of northern california.    There was this great rope swing once upon a time with a handle on it, hanging from a large tree,   you would stand on the rocks under the tree on the side of the river and swing out into the open swim hole dropping into pure life.   That feeling when your head pops up above the surface is like you have just been awakened to something real.    That makes me smile!    Talking about smiles, I love it when people smile !!   You honestly do spread hope and joy when you smile, even to a stranger.    I try to think of these good things when times seem hard, when I'm unsure which direction to go and the world gets loud with confusions voice.    

I'm a Singer and a Songwriter.  To be fair its more im a Songwriter and then im a Singer.     Just as I find it hard to find my place in this world, I find it hard to stick with one genre of music, I tend to explore just about everything out of curiosity and a dream that ultimately involves complete sync human collaboration.    Yeah I know a little unrealistic no wonder I get such deep depressive thoughts lol.   But that call in my heart to just smile at everything and appreciate everything, and to touch it all and become one with it, is just so strong.    This is who I am , this is my design.   I dont want to be the only the voice in the crowd heard.   I really want us all to be heard in perfect harmony, singing the most incredible song the universe has known and drawing in from all corners of the unknown all beings of love and peace and hope that might exist out there and just maybe they can bless us with some enlightening next level information that will help us get off this rock cause im ready to explore space .... 

just sayin' 

;) 

I want to share with you guys a song called "Sound of Strings" by @purpleprose   here on steemit.   Its one of the tracks on the Volume 1 Steemit Music Artist Multi Genre Compilation.    Its a piece that really moved me and I think carries alot of the emotion to the words in this post.     

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If you guys want to make someone smile today and inspire yourself I really encourage you to check out the Steemit Music Artist Compilation Volume 1 Featuring multi genre artists here on steemit.     These guys really captured my heart for this collection and this above track is just one of the many full of life bursting soul creations out there on this platform waiting to be discovered and used to inspire the world to great things.   

Go listen to the hearts and talents of 53 steemians

https://steemit.com/music/@soundlegion/steemit-music-artist-compilation-volume-1-post-2-support-steemit-artists-with-your-upvote