Hello Everyone, I have been trying to become a steemit member for a long time and today is my day. I got an mail from steemit and I just joined the site. I have heard so much about this one and now I am feeling so proud to become a member of steemit community. This is going to be my first post in the blog and I am going to introduce myself to the steemit world.
So I am Sourav, I am from a small village in West Bengal, India. Now let's get to the point directly as I am not a professional writer, but I am going to be one soon. Anyway, I was a bright student from the childhood. There are a lots of stories I am going to share in upcoming posts about my childhood and lifestyle, But now I am going to talk about how things going in life, how it went. So I was a bright student, got really good marks in the final exams in each class. Our class 10 exam is one of our first big exam in here, it's called secondary exam. It means a lot to us, and also it's your first opportunity to make your family proud, it's an opportunity to become a hero to the eyes of the people of the village. Before I appeared to the final exam, school used to organize a test exam with the same environment and also providing with tough questions, just to make us feel comfortable with the whole situation.Overall I scored 90 percent on the test exam. Got 100 on 100 on math and also scored 100 in two more subjects. And got 90 Percent marks in other subjects. My confidence was so high, from my school to my friends, family, everyone was so excited. They were all thinking like this boy is going to do a miracle.
The final exam appears, It was going good. But the last exam was Mathematics. One of my favorite subject of all time. So I was highly confident, I appeared in the exam just like other day. All other exams went pretty well, I was not good in English so that didn't go well but I didn't care. Now its time for Mathematics. But something occurred to me that day, and I was unable to answer the questions in the examination hall. I answered only 65 marks and got 63 in the final. That's it. When I came out of the exam hall and I was riding the bus while returning home, I answered every single question just by watching them without requiring any sheet or pen, and there were water coming out from my eyes. I got overall 80 percent marks but damn I was not happy.
Let's go to 12th exam. Same thing happened. I gave my best English exam and when result came out, I got 52 out of 100. And the result of the whole school was bad because the teacher who checked our answer sheet, well we don't know why he did that. And almost all the other schools in our area, they all got above 70 where in our school, which is the best in the area, only two or three boys got above 70 marks in English.
I fell in love. Sorry, I mean when I was in class 10, I used to see a girl and after passing the 12th exam, I proposed her. Oh this is one hell of a story. I first met her in my house. Isn't that interesting. And from then a lot of memory with her. Well, I am going to talk about my love life a lot since that this is the only good thing that ever happened to me. But there is a flaw. I promised her that we are going to get married at 25. Guess what? It didn't go without plan. I failed to marry her. Now I am 30 and she is also 30 and we are still together but sadly not married. Together means we can talk and may visit each other for sometime. Here, we can do all the other things after marriage. I love the rules so I am following it. Still hoping for the best, but hey, it's me.
Let's talk about Engineering. Yes I am an Engineer. Electronics and Communication Engineer. But after completing the degree, I never went for core company jobs, So I started working in a website development company as a web developer. After working for like 3 years I think, I made a few websites for my own. I started generating earning money from those and I had a business idea. So I quit the job and after some days, the one website performing good and also I am earning money from, got hacked and my earning stopped.
So next I started business. A printing gift shop business. I did all the investment here. Thought this would resolve all the problem. But hey, its me, nothing absolutely nothing comes easy in my life. 2 years the business was going steady but guess what happened next? Corona happened. And I had to close my shop, closed it on May 31, 2020. Here is my shop picture.
Now I am jobless, living with my mom and dad, dad had a stroke in November 2019, since then he is not well. His health is worsening everyday. Mom also suffering from pain in her hip and now she can not stand properly. Then there is my girl friend, who loves me till now. Waiting for me to do something good and fulfill all the dreams we had together.
What have you done if you are in a situation like this? Moral support can not do anything to me at this point. Now the whole world in crisis at this very moment. And also I am suffering each and every second right now. I started streaming games on Youtube, but how can I be successful there? A stress free mind can play games properly. But I am not good at any game. I am trying for a long time but still I am in the very same place.
I am a total failure, I really want to stay strong but I am losing myself. My head aches every single night. You don't need to put me in anywhere, I know my category. Let's see how everything goes, as I am going to share you my life everyday.
Thank you so much if you have read my post.