Changes of Cards

In life, there is always a change of cards, one day you will be blessed and the other day, you will be messed and both are normal. The question here is, why does your card seem to have a lot of messed that blessed? I am into a very complicated situation right now and I always ask myself, why does this happen to me? When all I did was to be good to people, both acquaintances and strangers. No matter how I divert negative things into positive ones, I know, I am not okay. I feel very very blessed whenever I wake up but do you know how messed was I before I sleep at night? Well, they say emotions are made up in our minds but I say, emotions are us being humans. We can control it but we cannot stop it. Somehow, it is fine to feel how messed you are so that you could be able to recognize and validate the feeling of being not okay because the more you deny your feelings, the more messed you become. It is funny how balance this world is, changes of cards does not occur every other day, it happens every seconds in your life. Let's say, when you are in a relationship, its funny how someone started the conversation and the relation, someone who is willing to give you the starts and the moon and one day, everything was changed, everything was like a world being reciprocated. All of the sudden, you were the one willing to give him the stars and moon, all of the sudden you start the conversation and relation. The world is full of surprises, either it excites or disappoint you, but life is life. Take it or leave it, there's nothing wrong on trying both sides of the card, what's important is, you survive.