How are you dear?
I may still ask how you are. Just asking for news.
Now it feels like I feel lost with this person who 5 years ago greeted me, as if changing with the changing times. The beginning of our meeting with a face that is still cute and does not know our respective backgrounds. Yes, we were once in a life school that rarely had such a school.
Come back when I'm and you don't know each other yet. Haven't looked at each other in surprise. Not understand each other yet. Not yet and not yet the things we have done together. We are not a group of people who are bound in a status relationship like dating. Myself and yourself until now. I did not expect our greeting to bring deep wounds to me. Even though what I call the wound might just be a normal thing for you.
When we split up to study higher and reach all of our dreams. For me this has become a new challenge for me. I thought that separating from you would not be a difficult thing to live with.
In me often comes the desire to send you a short message or a letter with my handwriting to just state your current situation. I understand that right now you are not someone who likes to pamper yourself with the available social media accounts. It makes me a little difficult to find information about you, but I will not lose that easily and I will always look for news about you there. I mistakenly thought that forgetting someone who means in our lives is a difficult thing to live with.
How is your activity now? I want to find out soon.
My heart used to be broken when I heard from your close friends if you already have someone who inhabits your heart. But fortunately this is only limited to gossip, but what about now?
I am still waiting for the right moment, because I have not had time to express my feelings towards you. But it is better for me than getting a reply that makes my tears flow. Let me feel this taste so that I know when is the right time to bestow all emotions, love and anything that is related to you.
Yesterday I saw you change photos on your social media account, you look beautiful now and change better. I just don't expect you to bring someone special other than your family.
Just remember, how beautiful moments when I can sit together on a trip on the bus to Jakarta. It's an unforgettable moment for me, because when you fall asleep, I can give a sweet kiss on the forehead to say good night. Many questions I want to ask you, but whatever I do. As a representative of feeling, let me ask you,
"Do you know this?"
Forgetting memories does not mean having to throw away all the memories I have ever felt. I'm just an ordinary person who doesn't know about when a meeting and separation occurred. But never do you doubt that your name will always be included in every prayer I pray to God.
It really hurts when you expected so much more you have loved so much.