My mentor showed up the time I need him the most.
2017, the world economy decreased few percentage and I felt the change.
the company I worked with had to let go of few technical employees and had to change strategy. I was one of the people who got transferred to a different department for proper distribution. I got into a department where I was treated badly. I started to educate myself so that I survive in the company but I lost my control and got depressed, I resigned without a back up plan.
I was jobless. I was desperate to save myself from despair so I joined online groups and talk to many people. Someone showed up the time I was at the bottom and when I was so is willing to learn. I shared everything to the person, all my problems, my mistakes, my self judgements, my feelings and all the words I can say. Since I was so desperate and sad, most of my talk are negative and hopeless. But I found someone I call a mentor.
My sister asked me to stay in her house and help her with her kids. I immediately responded. My sister was a savior at the same time, my mentor helped me correct my thinking and helped me cope with depression, my sister was there to give me enough shelter and food. I also took antidepressants at the time. I received more than enough help.
Now, I am writing about my mentor. He is very intelligent and full of patience. He has the heart to heal and help people. I joined a group chat about expanding the understanding of consciousness, that's the first time I talked to him and I immediately grasp his expertise and good heart. I asked him little by little and got his valuable answers. In every situation and questions I have, no matter how complicated or confusing it is, he has the right words to make me puzzled and understand my situation. His words are not too much nor too less. it is just right to encourage me to believe in my self and take actions. 5 years has passed. Today is May 16th 2021, in the middle of Corona pandemic. it is a good time to write about my mentor. a very good time since I have to think back from the past and re-assess my current situation and life in general.
My mentor played a great part for my transformation and is also part of my success. when I was doubtful of my self, he says "never doubt what you can do" and he says "accept the situation as it is and move on". When I am very frustrated and want to rant and mistakenly spill too negative and dark words to him, he is very patient and understanding. He is always available when I truly need him and not available when I can do things myself. I always wonder why mentor have big time for me, even he is at work, he respond. He answers my questions and sometimes say he had to do something important. So, because of his words and connection my life has gradually change to become better and kinder.
Mentor is a good source of books and contents. I got some pdf copies from him and got article and Youtube links. His gift references all for my learnings and entertainment. He also taught me to watch avatar: the last airbender and become an avid fan to it! We love to talk about the characters and their funny but sweet personalities. He also introduced me to some good music such as enigma. I find his content and views correct and I am glad I can get correct information from him.
The blessings I received and the people I connect with changed my thinking and my life 180 degrees. I gained new understanding about the world, I learned a new language, I met meaningful people, I worked standalone in my own business and I experience to leverage my work to other people. From an employee I became an employer. I was negative and dependent but now I learned to be positive and independent. I experienced fast and great change, too fast and too great to handle at some point. But I am sure it took me to the next life level and still on the way to the next chapter.
2021, the economy is down yet it is slightly increasing, the game is changing, new and unexpected challenges came, retrograde is going on, I am caught up with challenges and is getting trap and loop into negative thinking again, yet one thing that never changed since 2017. My mentor is still here and his lessons are still ringing in my ears. I just shared my frustration and spoke with him today and his reaction is timeless and a diamond. I am ashamed of myself for being me but he still believe I can change and improve even after 5 years of helping... he is still helping... still positive and full of hope.
In my life, Mentor is a blessing and a miracle.