The important choice is to choose to engage with yourself. Only when you do that can you understand why you procrastinate, why you feel down, why you feel hopeless, why you feel happy, why you feel energetic, etc. After understanding that, you need to learn to accept that none of those emotions are the truth. The truth is at your core. Get to that, and you will be able to build a successful (read: happy) life in the long run.