𝕥𝕖𝕒𝕞𝕙𝕦𝕞𝕓𝕝𝕖 // 12th March 2k18 // raining monday, how miserable.

Finding it hard to be positive at the moment folks, sorry.

Maybe it’s the weather I’m not sure but it’s just a grim old day, back to back raining, I really should be getting out and changing my mood by changing my space but I think I’ll just write today, I can still write out courses and posts for bigger posts on days like this, admittedly it would be good to do it out somewhere but I gotta take a rain day.

Maybe it’s the flat markets, maybe it’s the lack of focus or the balancing out of the days but everything just got a bit samey and linear. When things get like this I like to either shake things up and do things differently by going with the momentum of the day or just end up self reflecting on stuff.

I’ve been thinking about the term ‘proof of brain’ a lot in the last week, like what that actually means when it comes to the social blockchain. What defines my brain being in good working order for blogging? Will there come a time when my brain proof is similar to a neural networks current garbage and the AI will know the difference?

Is proof of brain really proof of acknowledgement that I am here, I am alive regardless of my mood and current ‘operating’ state? What if I have a brain condition later on in life, what if I can’t prove my brain anymore? Are we excluding people who might have lost their minds or do we invite them?

Just one of the many random things that was going through my brain in the last week or so, I’ve become fascinated with the steem white paper and finally have started to read up about the platform behind the words, I guess it was time, I’ve had a bit of time for research in between the spaced out days, I’ve just not been able to record because I did’nt want to be in a state of ‘recording for the sake of recordings’

Have you noticed that? Is that something that happens to you, wanting to put out a post or a video because you feel you have too, to try and keep up momentum, to speak out, to want to connect with someone, for someone to see you and comment and recogniser you so you don’t feel like the last human being on planet earth? It happens to me sometimes! :)

It’s probably reading all the flipboard news with the chaos of the world I absorb from hypersonic missles to disease x you can be sure of a handful of current events to be perturbed by if you let it, unfortunately news is also a distraction and an escape, constantly trying to adapt to the circumstances those potential create, you can live in a fear state if not careful.

I’m not sure how today is going to go, I’m not going to force it but I’d love to put up a @dlive and a @dtube video mainly just to be physically waving ‘I’m alive’ kinda thing, I’ve had a week off but I’m itching to fire up OBS and record one of the videos from my list (I like making lists, gives me purpose)

we had to move today around, it was getting all a bit much, taking time out and then trying to keep to a schedule for swimming each week, seemed like we were on that same bus, same time and every day was starting to feel the same, sometimes you just gotta stop the life bus and look around.

i’m sure we will go swimming at some point this week, maybe middle of the week would be better this week, wanna feel that I’m moving towards something rather than being stagnant, can’t put a pin on what the feeling is but it’s mentally trapping at times, overwhelm I think is the result.

And it’s so hard to be genuine about that on the internet on a blog, it’s like you have something wrong about your character or something, like normally you some kind of content making machine — again, that proof of brain algorithm head fuck got me this week, got me really spinning around the definition. What are we doing, where are we going. Am I just feeding the digital beast or am I getting forward.

I think I’m just in that butterfly media stage looking to break out of my shell to be the authentic rich colourful version of myself, ready to flap and land on objects looking all majestic AF — I think the snow, weather and logistics moving around was just a bit much, felt stretched trying to normalise my downtime, just blogging about it helps — unloading the words like a dumpster at the end of the universe wondering where they put it. . ..

Well, time for breakfast, it’s 09:41am and I want to salvage something of this day, coffee and porridge I think and then I’m gonna look at my list and see what I want to work on, see if I can get something together for you guys today, maybe watch some films and just have a different kind of day — I know tomorrow is all clear and mild, so monday will be tomorrow ;)

Lots of love, hugs to all of you that are in full flow, loving life and engaging at warp speed, that’s how it should be. Feeling alive and loved. GET IT!

pinterest epic wins pinboard → brand advocate for nokia, 1000heads, verisign → won vloggie for node666 (san fran 2006) → television for time team history hunters 1999 (burton on trent) → sold me.dm to evan williams in april 2011 → went to phil campbell, alabama to help raise money after tornado ripped up the town (was on sky news, bbc news)→ CNN for sxsw 2013 about austin south by southwest event → video chat with robert scoble from rackspace → music video can you spot me? → won the digital derry contest for 5k euros → crowdfunded digital signage concept called pi street → now living life through digital blockchains.