As a parent, it is my responsibility to help teach my children about life, reason, values, and happiness. Unfortunately, I just do not get it! I see my children's acting, talking, and thinking as if everything is bad or ugly; but I do not see them doing anything to change themselves. They are not even trying hard! What am I missing?
Well, I have noticed that most of my negative traits of our youth are things that I have tried to change. Things like violence, lying, stealing, and general bad behavior. I even teach my children how to admit when they are wrong, but yet I cannot get them to do the same for others. I guess it is because they are taught to say it first; thus, excuse their actions.
This is just one of the many negative traits of our youth that I have tried to change. Did it work? I guess not! I still cannot bring my children around justice, fairness, and truth; because they don't want to know or understand these things. They also will not accept and respect me anymore. In fact, I have more fear for my son growing up now then I ever did for him as a baby!
Now, I am not saying that I do not love my son; no one is perfect! I just do not see positive traits of our youth in him that would make me happy. I wish I could change everything about him and make him a better person, but I just do not. I feel awful and horrible about this, but he does not. I only hope that through his natural born instinct to survive, he can find a way to survive in this world.
If I could bottle this up and bury it deep inside of me so that he could not see it; would I be happy? No, I would not. I want my son to know what is right and wrong; yes he does need to learn these things as long as he lives. But if I bottle up these negative traits and bury them deep inside of me, will I be happy?
No! I am so over the grieve; I am so glad that I do not have to deal with all the negative traits of our youth any longer. I just don't get over it! My son is my sunshine and my happiness; I want him to always have this. I want him to love himself as he is and love others because he wants to grow up to be a great man. He wants to be a good and strong person and I only pray that he finds his way to becoming a great man.