I am 30 years old. There is a daughter of 1.8 years. My husband and I have known each other for 13 years, 5 of them together, and the last 2 years in a lawful marriage. Before my marriage they lived at home with my parents.
After the birth of the child, they decided to leave for her husband. There lived only his mother. The problems began when I was left alone with the child in someone else's, in fact, apartment. Husband at work, mother in law, too. On weekends he is in business, I'm alone again. The hormonal failure began against the background of lactation. She became irritable, often with her husband and mother-in-law. And in the end I started to go home with my daughter. Then I'll live there, then I'll be back for a week with my daughter to him. And I went for a whole year! Then I was intimate with my husband and in September 2016 I had an abortion. How he begged to leave the baby, but I was blind and deaf. I did not get enough sleep, I was thin. I could not decide for one more child. At the same time, my parents would not help me. My husband and I also did not really live together. Then we went with him to a psychologist, figured out my behavior, how to begin to live with us. I was afraid of the difficulties at his house.
In February, he said that if I did not return to him, he would file for divorce. I did not believe it, but he gave it. On March 9, there was a hearing at which we were dissolved. I did not fully believe that this would all end. And from that moment on, my hell began. On March 9, I went to another psychologist who talked with me for 4 hours! Oh, how she brainwashed me, how she uncovered everything, what I was afraid of in our relationship, why I ran away. I appealed to the court to cancel the divorce. But my husband did not back down.
He said that I have no more chances. Everything is left in the past. He had another woman from his job and even lives with him! Surrounded by my belongings and toys. I tortured him with calls and messages. He said he was tired of everything, and he already knows nothing about the future. He let go of the situation. He now feels good without me. What should I do? I am in such a prostration from the thought that I lost my husband myself, I want to return it now, but I do not know how to do it now.