My husband and I are together for 5 years. We live well, love each other, help each other in every way, support, etc. It happened that I stayed overnight with my friend after work, and my husband and my friends rested at home (drinking and watching films).
At 5 am they went home. In the morning I come home, it so happened that there are no keys and started to call my husband, but he did not take the phone, but as it turned out, he came home after me for 5-10 minutes, met at the entrance. He said he went for flowers, but he did not have any money with him. At home there were quarrels, abuse and suspicion. Later, he pulled out of his pocket a bill that was intended for flowers (he took home, most likely). After the scandal, he collected things and left the house, writing sms that there was no betrayal, but he is very much to blame and wants to end his life, because he is ashamed. In the evening I came home and showed the details of the numbers, I said that I called the phone all night long, but I did not get through, because the money was not paid by the card.
Now I do not know what to think. And what if he called and chose a girl on call? What if he betrayed me? Now he actively argues that there was nothing. Cries, tries to make amends and swears that nothing happened. I know my husband well, when he lies and for some reason I want to believe him. But all the facts indicate otherwise! I understand with my head that it's impossible to do anything in an hour, you have to get there, do things, go home. I do not understand myself, I really want to believe, but I can not. I look at him and believe, as soon as I am alone - I am eaten by thoughts, I cry and compile facts against him. My husband says that if he had changed, he never returned home at all, I see how he repents and suffers. But my thoughts are eating me!