THIS IS ME. HERE I AM.

In a world where many feel like beauty standards are too high; like there's too much pressure to look a certain way.. the same world that has people that believe in a flat earth and feel like they should have been born a dragon.. There's never been a time where it's been more alright to be yourself. So where does all this insecurity and anxiety come from? Even when Dove runs their 'natural beauty' campaigns, they get people with perfectly photogenic curves and wrinkles. Why can't I love the skin I'm in?

I know a lot of the competition where I work (and I really do hate calling it that, because all for one n that) are the typical bigtitted blow up dolls (and I feel equally ashamed for stereotyping) that are responsible for leading me down a path of finding my comfortable self. Hello awkward sentence to read. And what's more sexy than that?

People like me cos I'm different, down to earth and, dareIsay, a bit funny?.. that's hard to portray in the few seconds it takes for someone to come into my camroom, decide I'm not for them and leave before I can say Hello. I prefer people that stay for a chat anyway.

I'm a bit fed up of feeling insecure, fed up of needing the comfort of good lighting and decent makeup. Fed up of double guessing what people actually want to see. Never have I ever looked at anyone and thought 'eww' – why do I put myself through that?

You lot are beautiful, I'm beautiful, and here I am:

gotta love that selfie stick too sometimes..