Today again thankfully I was able to eat my breakfast of lunch and at least I had some protein and calories but after eating I just took my parathyroid medicine and now the nausea is kicking in immediately after that. I really do not think that I can eat because of lack of appetite.
I will just ask my mother some biscuits if ever my blood sugar would go down this evening because for sure I will not be eating. It is awfully hard to eat often with a zero appetite and everyday is just the same although sometimes I would be served with delicious meal I could still not been able to eat.
Lat Father's day I bought my father some crispy pork leg, it is supposed to be a great viand but after a bite or two I am just felt full already. Not that my belly was full but I am already satiated that I could not have another bite.
I am just compensating a bit with a drink that I am always having, the pineapple juice although it comes in a can. But I believe that eating less is good for the body although I still need to enjoy food.
Why can't I try different food? For one thing I will not be able to eat anyway plus I will have to take some phosphate binder which will make my meal an expensive one. That is also one of the reasons that I could not eat frequently but the main reason was just this appetiteloss that my parathyroid is causing me.
I can't just quit my medicine because my body needs it lest i will turn into a giant wart. Well maybe at least soon I will get a thrice-weekly dialysis and will allow me to eat normally three times a week too. That is one of the good news that I am expecting in the future.
Meanwhile I will try to endure this eating problem, anyway it had been almost two years already that i am having this eating problem, I just needed more prayers. May God help me.