Dear Diary: It Feels Good To Shower After A Hot And Humid Day

I only want to shower or bath if I want to use the toilet. It is because showering for me is a tasking activity now because of my body's condition plus it is making me hard to breathe when I do a seemingly normal body movement but for me it is all hard work like I am walking on the peak of mount Everest with no oxygen.

I am just thankful that at least the weather is helping me get rid of some of the toxins and extra fluids in my body through sweating. So when the rain comes in I would miss the hot days already. That is why I am not considering to buy an airconditioning unit because it will not benefit me much.

Now going to the toilet would mean that I have to take a bath and it will wear me out fast like a smartphone with a WiFi and Bluetooth turned on. So I would limit my trips to the bathroom and I do hate that because bathing is what I like doing frequently even in the wee hours of the morning.

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I also do not want to bother my parents much in wheel-chairing me up to our raised bathroom so now I am just carpooling my toilet and shower needs in one trip and that is not everyday just in consideration for my parents who are not getting younger even.

It will be hard for me as I have realized that if I would outlive one or both of my parents so I am still praying that God would provide them more strength so that I won't get a hard time living and caring for myself.

I know it is a dread situation but I am preparing for the worst to come but may God forbid anything bad to happen anymore for me because I had a ton of bad things already happened in my body and life. May God bless you all.