Dear Taraz,
What we don’t know, we don’t know. You apparently are in acceptance of what is, including what you see as your life. Should this stance give you peace, I would say that you are quite fortunate. You would be the envy of many of our fellow humans. Evident from your thoughts, however, is the seeming attitude that life is what the world unfolds for you regardless of gods that might be. Of course, you said nonetheless that you would strive to do that which you believe is good not only for yourself but for others, as well.
May I interpose herein something I encountered on the internet that you might want to look into. This is a conclusion from experiments lately that reality of humans accordingly is a product of emotions and feelings and not thoughts, ideas or any other human attributes. Reference: https://www.lifecoachcode.com/…/…/26/emotion-shapes-reality/. Consequently, this translates into a further conclusion that man is the creator and is solely responsible for his own reality.
I have posted a write up on this topic on my blog.