I seem to be one of the few who escaped much of the programming, as I was/am autistic. Growing up autistic, kept me protected in my own little world -- while others were worried about fitting in and learning to conform, I was running around pretending to be a wild horse who stomped (visually not literally) into the ground anyone who tried to tame me. I strongly SENSED the energy of what I now call, THE GREAT BOX -- what others have called the matrix, and the "nightmare of the planet" -- and knew I did not like it, nor want any part of it, but was completely without words to describe what I was running from. I only knew that I had to run.

As a child, when I listened to my parents stressing out loud re how they were going to "pay the bills", or any other drudgerous item on the to-do list for getting through life inside the BOX, they appeared to me as if they were acting ...as if they KNEW they were playing a role -- which included viciously attacking anyone who might suggest they were acting ...would have gotten "the belt" and sent to bed without dinner.

It wasn't until I reached my 40's that I was able to begin sorting out my world and being able to figure out why I had had such a difficult time just surviving, let alone fitting in, my entire adult life...

...Then I began to realize that, from the beginning, I wasn't wrong. I wasn't defective. Though I was most certainly a "disorder" from the perspective of those who's fear-based objective was/IS to maintain ORDER at all costs. And proudly, still am!