Do I want to know if I am wrong?

I was raised to believe in a God. In my opinion, it doesn't matter which, what matters is that the belief was that there is an all-knowing entity that created and pervades all that was, is and will be, and it has absolute power.

Now, I do not believe. The reason I do not believe is as an adult, this notion does not align with my experience as a human thus far. At no point in my life have I felt the presence of this being, I have seen no direct evidence that can only be explained by it and the odd times I have decided to have a chat, only my own voice answered. 

This doesn't mean I do not leave room for its existence though. It is not that I am hedging my bets, it is that I am awaiting evidence. I do not deny that there may be a creator, I just will hold belief until proof comes forth and greets me.

And it would have to come to me for I understand that if it does exist as all that is, I am already inside it. Does the blood cell know of the body in which it travels? 

Therefore, God would have to take some form that is acceptable for my mind to welcome and reveal itself to me directly. And I mean directly. I have to have no shadow of a doubt by definition and because so many people are invested in certain outcomes and benefit from groups holding certain beliefs, I cannot ever trust the words of another.

Now, many of the true believers I have met say that they have experienced God and know it to be true. The problem is, they have been from several different faiths that do not always accept the Gods of others. This means that either God can be whatever you want it to be, one of them only is correct, there is one God masquerading as many, or they are delusional and even if there is a God, they have not necessarily come across it directly, but pretend or 'feel' they have.

I can't trust the senses of others as they are personal. There is no way for me to get nutritional value from the food they eat. So if they have actually come across God, they cannot convey the feeling or experience to me adequately. If they are delusional, I do not say there is no God, I can just understand that they have not met it so far.

If God is masquerading as all Gods, which I find quite immature for a God to do, then those that have actually witnessed it, still do not understand enough to realise that it is all the same God. To me, that makes their actions incomplete and their insistence at their correctness, folly.

If only one of the groups is correct and I do not belong to any group I will be bound to experience whatever the correct group's God has planned for non-believers. Along with the majority of the world who also got it wrong.

Which leaves God as whatever one wants it to be. So, since a God is all powerful, all-wise and all-merciful in my opinion, that would make it all-understanding and all-forgiving also.

My God would would completely and totally understand my lack of blind faith in what I have not experienced since it is also me and knows all I do, think and intend. Thus, would forgive me unconditionally for it is all-loving, making its love unconditional.

As my God is all-loving, I have nothing to fear for God is all, making all loved by God. My God doesn't care that you believed in a wrong God and will forgive everyone in its all loving understanding. And, if God doesn't exist, I won't have wasted too much time contemplating the existence of something that unless it directly presents itself, is unknowable. 

Now, people can criticise my view of God/No God but essentially it is beyond reproach except from an external view, which of course is not external at all, as it still resides inside my God. There is no way out of my God, there is no arguing and every bit of evidence that is found contrary, is not at all for all that is possible is possible. That is the definition of a God, right?

If the definition of a God is all-knowing, all-wise and the creator of all, anything possible is actually an act of God, including all of the things that all of the other people say their God forbids. How can God forbid its own possible actions?

That would include the thoughts and actions of a non-believer.

So, until that direct meeting takes place, I will continue on doing what I think is Godly. That is, helping where I can, adding value where I can and accepting that other people may be right or wrong in their beliefs too. 

If there is no God, I still won't be an asshole. And if there is a God, not being an asshole might still get me into its good graces. Either way I will find out eventually.

What will be will be. God or no God.

Taraz
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