I didn´t know who I was, and because it´s kind of scary if you don´t know,
I pretended to be bigger than I acctually was. No one realized, and I forgot about the role I was playing. I became my shadow game.
Someone walked by and reminded me. „THIS IS NOT WHO YOU ARE!“
I was confused. And shattered.
So, I sat down to think about it.
So many feelings, about my beliefs about who I was.
They started to melt away, just by sitting with it.
How scary.
But I also had a great desire to find myself.
So I went on, and Shadows became smaller.
Something was growing.
I couldn´t name it
I couldn´t touch it
So many thoughts, so many beliefs about who I was.
They started to melt away, just by sitting with it.
What a relief.
But the desire to know who I am was really strong.
So I went on. Shadows became smaller.
Something was growing.
I couldn´t name it
I couldn´t touch it
I realized, t sit down was good to find out what I am NOT.
So I went on, and tried again.
I´ll just sit, and wait;
„what will I find out today?“
„WHAT IS THIS?“
Am I not even my body? How can it be? I can not be my body!
If I am here, and my body there;
if I can see and name my body, - i can not be my body, nor my toughts, or my feelings!
Otherwise, why should I say: „mine“?
That moment the „I“ vanished, and everything which has been before.
That moment the „I“ saw, very clear what it never was.
That moment the power of „I“ disappeared, and Knowledge took place.
The actress vanished; The shadow disappeared. The true Self appeared.
That moment I understood who I was. I am That!
I can´t name it, it lives in all names.
I can´t touch it, it is everything.
It doesn´t come, it doesn´t go.
**It is self-luminious,
all-pervating.
I am That.**
